Throughout the past few years I have been very aware of angels in my life, of God helping me find my way, of a special comfort that I cannot explain. That same comfort has found me yet again, the past few days. The other day I posted about our unfortunate incident with our home. It has been quite a challenge for all of us. Matt has had a particularly hard time being "displaced" and feeling no control over his life. Two nights ago he was feeling sad and frustrated. He just wanted to go home. He does not always think rationally when he is upset. I was trying to get a fussy baby to sleep and wasn't aware of what Matt was doing. Suddenly I had a bad feeling and looked out to our driveway to find our car was gone. My heart immediately sunk and I had a feeling of dread. Matt has not driven for 2 1/2 years. He has little control over his right leg, poor vision, and slow reflexes. It was 10 at night, the roads are very icy, and the road from my parents house to our house is quite trecherous.
My Dad and I ran out the door to find him. I couldn't gather one thought, so many were running through my mind. I knew he was upset and wasn't sure he would even try to be safe. I could not imagine him making it anywhere safely. I was scared to death of what we might find. I just kept praying over and over that he would be okay. We were frantically searching for the car, not knowing where Matt could possibly be. We made it all the way to our house and found the car safely in the driveway. I ran inside and Matt was okay. He said it was So hard to drive with and without his brace. He had stopped to take it off (which requires taking off his pants and shoes), in the below zero weather. He had gone off the road once, into a snowbank. I talked to him calmly, helped him see things clearly, and we went back to my parent's house.
I cannot explain the relief we all felt at Matt's safety. Considering all circumstances, there is no way that he could have done that on his own. I know that he had help driving home safely. He needs to be safe, to be a dad and husband. He has a special purpose in this life, that I am certain of. He has angels watching over him, and I am so grateful for the blessings in our life. The song posted below is perfect for my feelings. This week has been really hard on all of us. I try to always be positive and count my blessings, but sometimes I feel sorry for myself and wonder why we have to deal with some of the hard things that come our way. I cannot feel this way for long without being overwhelmed with reminders of the comfort and blessings that have been literally SHOWERED upon us. There are angels among us.
"Angels Among Us" Alabama
I was walking home from school on a cold winter day.
Took a shortcut through the woods, and I lost my way.
It was getting late, and I was scared and alone.
But then a kind old man took my hand and led me home.
Mama couldnt see him, but he was standing there.
And I knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers.
Oh I believe there are angels among us.
Sent down to us from somewhere up above.
They come to you and me in our darkest hours.
To show us how to live, to teach us how to give.
To guide us with a light of love.
When life held troubled times, and had me down on my knees.
Theres always been someone there to come along and comfort me.
A kind word from a stranger, to lend a helping hand.
A phone call from a friend, just to say I understand.
And aint it kind of funny that at the dark end of the road.
Someone lights the way with just a single ray of hope.
Oh I believe there are angels among us.
Sent down to us from somewhere up above.
They come to me and you in our darkest hours.
To show us how to live, to teach us how to give.
To guide us with a light of love.
They wear so many faces, show up in the strangest places.
To guide us with their mercy, in our time of need.
To guide us with a light of love.
