Thursday, January 26, 2012

i could just kiss you all

Wow.  So I wrote this post mostly out of complete frustration. I was actually ticked off when I wrote it.  Maybe I was feeling a little sorry for myself.  Feeling like a lost cause and really annoyed.
Then, the emails poured in, facebook messages, and sweet comments.  I am completely overwhelmed by the caring of my family, friends, and even people I don't know.  I feel so loved and I cannot express my gratitude for every one's thoughts.  I reread my post and the messages and just cried.  It really means something to feel validated, even though that was absolutely not what I was looking for.  I spend so much time irritated with myself and feeling like I should just be able to suck it up, it felt so good to know that other people have felt and do feel this way, that it isn't normal, and that maybe I am doing the best I can with what I have.  The ideas and heartfelt concern gave me renewed determination and for that I am so grateful.

I wish I could thank each one of you, but know that I am truly appreciative.  Know that my spirits were lifted more than I can say.  Thank you, thank you, thank you!

And I had to include a few pictures of another gorgeous sunset. The night sky looked like it was on fire.  I might have a little bit of an obsession with the sky.  It is incredible!


Susan said...
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Susan said...

You are an amazing woman and I just love being neighbors and friends! I know our situations are different, but I feel like you "get it". There are days I feel so drained both physically, emotionally and mentally. I question Heavenly Father and tell him he has picked the wrong woman to raise these special kids. I guess days like that are normal once in a while. Hang in there and know that if you ever need anything CALL ME! Even if it is a just good cry or a listening ear. I love that your so willing to share, it reminds me that I'm not alone in the way I feel sometimes. Love ya!

Stefanie Ruth said...

I love you Jess, always have and I always will. :-)

We all go through tough times. I think it's so important as friends, women, and humans to stick together and help one another through it. I may not be able to relate much experience to your situation, but I'll always be here to listen and encourage.

That's a Pig City promise. ;-)